I don't like to focus on the negative, in fact, I'd much rather smile & make good things happen if they aren't happening on their own. But today, well, today is just one of those days. I'm about to vent a little bit, but please, don't take this the wrong way. I am in no way looking for sympathy, or looking for comments to try to fix my problems, I just.... Need to get it out.
Call me a cry baby if you want to. My husband is a U.S Marine, and while we've been married, he has not been deployed. He has however, spent countless hours training. These training exercises have taken him far from home on more than one occasion. Yes I am lucky, Yes I am blessed. I realize this, that our situation could be much, Much worse. But just because he is still within the United States doesn't mean that when he is away, that I don't miss him. He is my husband after all. My soul mate. My best friend. Yes, we knew what we were getting ourselves into when we got married. Yes, we knew what we 'signed up for' when we re-enlisted, but just because we knew what would happen, does that mean that I can not miss my husband when he is away?
It's not always hard. It's not always Lonely. Most days it's easy to be away from him. My son keeps me very busy. He makes me laugh, and smile. Giving me something to look forward to each day. When Travis is away, I'm not always down. That doesn't make me a bad spouse.
Am I happy that he is away? Sometimes, Yes. It's good to have time apart. It gives both of us a chance to truly appreciate one another. To miss each other and all those little things that would typically get on our nerves. I always feel closer to my husband once he gets back. Bottom line? I love my Husband.
